I Feel Weird

So this week has been weird for me. Nothing crazy or bad has happened, Or even great. I just feel weird. It is hard to explain what I am feeling. I think maybe because I have a lot of decisions to make in my life and its overwhelming. They would be another big change. Change in life can be good, but it is scary also. I just need to focus on a decision and plan to make that choice and see what happens.

Random: I was talking with my friend Tara (well many of my friends also) about the dating life. No one is dating these days. People "Hang out". Guys are afraid to take the plunge and actually go on a date. What is the big deal? Really??!! Go on a date with someone if you are interested. You aren't going to get married from 1 freaking date!! And if the person thinks that, than be done with them and move on. Girls like to go out on dates, its ok to go on them. So frustrating....Can I get an AMEN?!! =)
So by this, you can see the dating life isn't really happening for me right now. There are many quality women out there I know who are not getting asked out, but want to go out on dates. Intimidating? Too beautiful?? I don't believe it. I think it's an excuse because they are too scared to go for what they may really want. It's too bad we have fear in life. Imagine if we had no fear in situations such as these. Going for what we want, for anything in life. We don't care if we fail, we just get back up and keep moving forward. That is definitely something I need to work on. How about Ill ask someone out?? hmm, I don't want to be the one to ask out someone. ha Guess we can't always get what we want.
This is rather therapeutic for me. Even if no one reads it, its nice to get my thoughts out on here. If someone reads it, which I hope that they do and you obviously are if you are reading this, (hehe) than GREAT!! Cause you know you won't get all of this out of me by talking to me. lol I'm working on that one too!!
So comments anyone?? =)

grrrr!!!

So...I need help with this layout....I need more time to sit down and figure this blogsite out and how to make it look good....So far I Changed the background...Now, as you can see, everything that was on the left side is now at the end...How did that even happen??
I need sleep...

Socializing in the mormon world...

So...The past few weeks I've been feeling like not socializing or going out to all these mormon parties or activities. Although, Im not some huge social butterfly anyway. haha But lately, I don't feel like being around a bunch of people or try to be social and happy, or meet new people. And its funny, a couple of my good friends seem to feel the same way. Why is that all of a sudden? We would go out every weekend. To a party, activity...something. Than all of a sudden, I just dont care. Im pretty content with staying at home alone and watching The Office. =) Im ok with being around a couple people or no one. For me, socializing is something that wares me out. Its difficult for me, so I have to put forth more effort than most people. Since moving out here over 2 years ago its been something that is constant because I only new 1 person when I moved out here. And the person I knew was my roommate and she had a boyfriend shotely after I moved here. I had to go on my own and force myself out of my comfort zone and try to meet people. Don't get me wrong, it has been a great experience and something that has helped me open up, but it really is starting to ware on me a little. Im sure Ill get my "fun" back, but this time right now is just a chill, do nothing, relax, I dont care time....It's nice and I LLLLLLIKE IT!!

Labor Day

So today is Labor Day. I would be working, however, it is my regular day off so I got lucky. =)
I'd had a lot on my mind for the past 3-4 months. How can I be more happy and be ok with the trials I go through? I've been also wanting to read more. I say more, I mean I just want to start reading. I've never been a fan of just sitting down and reading a book. I get bored and just stop. I've started about 5 books but never completed them. ha
So now I've started reading a book to help me learn how to keep "toxic" people out of my life or how to deal with people like that. Also, how to not be toxic myself. It's been an eye opener to me and has helped me a lot. We can't change people, however, we can change the way we react and handle situations with others. It's focus is about how other people cannot change us, we change ourselves....Whether its for good or bad. It is all about OUR attitude. I found a quote in that book that I love..."Pain in life is inevitable, but misery is a choice". Ive come to realize that more and more these days while I focus on my reaction to others. I tend to lose focus at times, as most people do, but Im trying hard to really better myself and be around people who I feel make me want to better myself. Feels good.
So if you have any thoughts on this, please comment. I love hearing others insites and experiences on this and life ingeneral. We all learn from each other.

The Start

So I have been wanting to keep a journal type thing for a while, but for the past few months I don't have internet on my computer. And I don't want to write my thoughts down...too much work. haha, plus, if you have seen my penmanship you would tell me to type instead of write.
A good friend (Tara) has inspired me to create this blog. Her blog is pretty awesome and I enjoy reading hers. So I hope it is the same for you who are reading mine.
I thought I would type up my thoughts for the people in my life that mean the most to me.
It is going to take me a little longer being that I don't have much access to internet, but I will do my best for all you soon-to-be fans of mine. haha
I am currently over a friends house now and it is 12:36am. I am stealing his wifi to download music and type this up. How nice of him. =) I think I am going to go home now.
I will leave you with this.....
"Let your heart feel for the afflictions and distress of everyone" -George Washington